I never really understood love until...

I never really understood love until I became a mother and I never really knew I could feel such heartache until I watched one of my kids suffer. I can be so strong until it comes to my children. Last year Sommer decided that she wanted to be tested for the breast cancer gene. My sister, Sheilia had just tested negative so Sommer had hope and felt it was time to deal with the results no matter what. Arnold, Sommer and I met with the genetic counselor and she was prepared to find out. They drew her blood and told us they would let us know as soon as they had the results. Sommer was home for break so we asked if possible, it would be nice to get the results before she left. The results came in the day before she was to leave. We met with the counselor and she told us that Sommer tested positive. My heart broke for Sommer, we all were hoping and praying that she was negative. The counselor reminded us that the only thing different now was that we knew she had it, she had it all along now we just have information so that she can be watched closer. The recommendation was that she see an oncologist once a year and have an annul MRI.

This past Monday she had her annual MRI test. On Tuesday the oncologist called to tell us that they saw something on the test and wanted to take a closer look so she would need to come in for an ultrasound. The ultrasound was yesterday. I sat in the waiting room was she was having the ultrasound. The same waiting room that I am very familiar with, I had waited there so many times just to hear weather or not anything showed up on my mammogram. I sat there talking to God asking him for peace no matter what happened now or in the future. The wait seemed like forever! Sommer came out and told me they said it is benign, just want to retest in six months. I was so relieved. For now everything seems fine. I really wish that she did not have to live with this but she does. It reminded me once again of how life can change in an instant and also how very important it is for more research to be done. I pray that they will figure out how to repair this gene mutation soon.